MIND SAID, "LET HER GO" BUT, THE HEART, "I CANNOT" !!!

                   Please do revisit the previous story- Love you over the moon;
     
       

        Here I Go... .... ..... !!!
              
                      I WAS ABOUT TO JUMP OFF THE CLIFF .....

       
               " I don't want someone who promises me the moon and the stars .
        I want someone who promises to lay on the grass and watch them with me ."


The golden globe was about to lie low at the rear of hills. Standing alone at the top of cliff I  was wandering.  I was gazing over the sapphire blue sky just above me. Meanwhile, my sight twisted towards the hills, the sun was on the verge of hiding. Suddenly, the sun escaped from the horizon with a  single blink of mine. The darkness radiated all around.  The situation reversed from left field. I stared up again, the sky was no longer blue it was black and dark. The cloud had flocked up, it was about to rain. My prediction came true . The lightening flashed my eyes and thunder blew my ears . It started to rain . I was reckless, something deviated my memory and I was completely preternatural. I memorized the day three years back . . . That uproar, that lightening and that rain . . . I recalled  that red rose , that smile and that countenance . . .  I lost my supremacy . The words that I thought I erased from my memory hammered deeply into the right hemisphere of my brain. "I Love You" , those three words  resounded again and again into my ears and subconscious memory.

Along with each flashes of lightening her smile smacked me and along with each thunder her words thrashed me tough. Hastily, I intruded into  my left pocket . . . The sweetest gift of all the time was no longer there. From the next  I awaited the photograph  of her . . . It was also non existing. I just fell between the cracks of her cherished memories. Inadvertently tears burst out of my eyes. I strived hard to discontinue those eye-drops, but  my efforts were good for nothing, the driblet were sliding down passionately. I broke my own pledge, I had vowed myself never to sob in her memories. My heart displeased and my brain surrendered to the agonise. The sweet anamnesis forged a peaked nail into the inner core of my cardiovascular system and neural network. I made my mind alert as I took a determination  to jump off from the escarpment.There was none to halt me, I was a step behind to plunge into the river down the cliff........... Suddenly my phone knelled, I muted it and took a step ahead to depart from this world. I shut my eyelid and shouted her name "............" and recalled her stale memories ......... The phone knelled again and again, I was about to takeoff but I just ogled who was calling me, it was my mother! I picked up the phone, she inquired where I was. At the moment I glimpsed down. The deep river was whirling and the dense wood was snoring. Then I gained consciousness. I stepped back and responded that I was on my friends home. The connection cut off. My sight approached a bush of red rose. The bush owned a single rose which was  illuminant than mine. Still I gazed and gazed over it and I was trying to solace the pain of my heart .The rain faded the petals of that rose. . . The petals slowly started to detach from the flower. . . The rose was no longer there only its thalamus was there, like the memory was still fresh but someone was already lost. I picked up a petal and carefully placed it near to my heart which was almost numb in her remembrance. Again, the phone rang it was my brother and asked me to be back soon. I looked the clock it was already half past nine so I crawled hard to reach home with my inoperative brain and heart. I got changed and went to bed. I was unable to fall asleep. I was attempting to sleep and erase the memory, still her memory washed my nerves and melted my heart. Her words thundered my ears and her countenance flashed my eyes. Even though I closed my eyes she was there just in front of me. I reckoned that she was residing inside me. The night passed weeping with the memory of a day three years back and a pretty angel.*

The next morning I woke up in whizz and headed towards the cliff with something to write with and something to write on. Mentioning falsity to my mother that I was going my friend's home whom I visited yesterday I ran away. Recalling each and every moments for few hours, I dared to write her a letter. I wrote her what the day before happened. I felt it was not nice so I wrote a next one .The same happened  for four letters, finally I decided to agree with the fifth one with which I was pleased a little. I only remember few words of the letter. . ."I", "Love" and "You". I gazed down the forest was dark deep and lovely. . . My phone rang ...It was the call of  one of my classmate who lived adjacent to her house. He remarked that she had shifted somewhere else. I felt a strong shock. Shock of thousands volts thundered my brain. Again I started wailing. . .and behaving like a insane. Finally I took a harsh decision to jump off the cliff, I headed towards its end, I marched forward, I was about to slide ..................................... There was no one to stop me. . . I shouted her name "........." closed my eyes and said bye-bye to this world. I stretched my open arms in the air and was a inch behind to lean ahead. I breathed deep ........................................................................
I don't know my fortune favoured or deceived me. One man shouted Hey stop from the bottom of cliff. I felt a strong spatial shift, my malfunctioning mind changed the decision. I ran away to home.

Finally I was capable to track her address from another friend. I texted her the letter same day. It was Saturday. My heart beat geared down for a day but started to beat abnormally as I was waiting the thirst of love to be quenched. Waiting for the response Sunday passed like wise Monday and Tuesday ........ Acting and behaving frantically twenty thousand hours  passed on, waiting for the reply .Every single days were a months for me . Eventually on the 11th day I received her response.

It commenced like ....  "sorry dear. . .'' with this start I evaluated  the letter on my own, I assumed the story will be on my favour. I continued reading with the piece of paper my heart was waiting for, my expectations went into vein. She stated that she belonged to new one! Her reply was something like "It's too late that I can't be yours,  please go for next option." The sky fell over me and crushed me. I was fragmented I had brain stroke accompanied by heart stroke . . . With the eyes full of tears I gazed and gazed up the dark blue sky and asked the god, "why my fortune deceived me ...?" If I was to be cheated why I was born ? I regretted why I was still alive. The god was spellbound he was unable to reply a single word also. The letter ended like "please do not text me more I don't want any more from you." What a misfortunate  I was? I questioned myself, the answer was obvious, the god was responsible! I gazed up once again and shouted "you are the supreme". I prayed him not to do that with her what he did with me............................
I was unable control I stroked the window next to me with my right hand. . .
The glass fragmented into pieces ... and it bleed .. it was paining but the pain was nothing at all compared to what my heart was having. The broken fragments scattered all around I walked upon those broken pieces with bare foot to lessen my pain. My lunacy was not over! I remember I was in trauma for a month in her worship. Thank god! I'm alive .........................
Objecting her request I texted her the last letter. I just mentioned few words ... ... ...
"Dear I loved you, I'm loving you and will love you forever If, I will be able  to tie the                              broken  pieces of my fragmented heart once again. "

  

 | Those who are in relationship. . . God bless you ....... Those who are single have a hope    that the god is busy writing the best story for you |

                                       I hope her to be reading this text !!!!!!*

LOVE YOU OVER THE MOON

THE FLASHBACK:THOSE THREE WORDS....

“ Mind ponders 'magic' are those wonders
hearts travel 'love' is that marvel”

Oh! I reminisced ! When I was the seventh grader one beauteous girl whispered in my ears 'I love you' handing me a radiant rose. The puzzling circumstance knocked my door, love was the word I had never heard !Looking to my eyes with shy she vanished. I was feeling something pristine so, I did not notice myself gazing over the charm of red rose. The bell rang ….......! I was startled , where I was? I felt like something blew me with huge rapidity. Hastily without caring disparate objects I kept the red rose inside my pocket with full attention. Instantaneously, I left for home.

The three words, 'I', 'you' and 'love' were printed in my vacant neurons, they were hard to erase. My ears were perceiving the echo of her melodious words frequently. Meanwhile, I took the red rose and started staring at it. Its gleam was her charisma and color the innocence! For a while, I was perplexed was a red rose beside me or she was there? Meanwhile my brother entered, pulling my cheek he questioned, “what is that?” pointing to my red rose. I was full of terror, I answered in complete anxiety “sweetest gift ever”. The next question made me dumb, I was spellbound! “are you in love”? My fortune favored me, mother intervened and asked us to sleep. Objecting her proposal, I climbed upstairs.

Wow! It was a full moon day. Had I seen moon so close and bright? I was in great amusement, silently I shared my query with the moon. “what is love”? Immediately moon quenched my thirst, I was replied “love is love”. I smiled, again those three words struck me hard. What a word it is? Still I remember those words. I was striving hard to sleep. Her charisma and glowing expression was making my heart melt. The night also passed with sweetest dream ever. I tried to remember the whole dream but all the efforts were good for nothing. I just remembered the word she spoke to me, those three words, I, love and you.

The next morning I crept to school swiftly. The day passed in a blink. Her smile, shiny eyes and that charisma drew up time so quickly that I cant remember actually what happened that day. It is the only day of my life on which I prayed that if there were few more hours on that day. Keeping my eyes on hers I was about to speak 'those three words', but my fortune deceived me. Her father arrived and took her home. I uttered “bye-bye dear”, she smiled with shy and she was no more there she was gone in a blink. She was gone. I was left in tears. The thunder began to shake my ears, the lightening struck me fleetly. It rained harsh on me.
It was mine last day at that school!
                             “ Goodbyes are hard, break ups are harder but it may
                                           be the hardest for one being left behind”.

Few years have passed, things kept on changing but the memory is still sweet as it was before. The time passed but those three words are not stale yet. The reverberation of those three words vibrate my ears each and every time. Every red roses melt my heart. Hope she is fine there where she is. I wish her to come back to me. The image and charm of that lovely angel as well as her gift is still vivid in my memory. The love and feeling for her is still the same !
So I came to know that love is nothing but it is the feeling from the heart that tightens the closeness between 'I' and 'YOU'. 'I' and 'YOU' is incomplete without one thing. The connector is 'LOVE'. The combination of these words make those three words!

“For those who come: why to go?
For those who aim to go: why to come?”

                                                  I hope her to be reading this text!!!!!!